A POST THAT SAYS IT ALL - too owh owh ate

Oh all right.

It is the last day of the year of 2008.

Finally!

Whoopey~!

So, what I'm going to do is what other bloggers would do.

A summary of the year, the apologies, the appreciations, this, that..

Yes, i'm going to do this.

Call me unoriginal, but whatever, right.

=)

My year of 2007 ended cheerfully with friends

that I've known for only few months and also with my besties

at some cafe lounge at my hometown, Kluang.

It was all good.

The year started in a very great way.

FEBRUARY

I can't really remember how my January was. So, i'm gonna start with February.

on the 3rd of February of this year, My grandma(paternal side) fell down and hurt her left knee.

She was admitted to hospital immediately and got on a surgery.

When me and my family got the news, we all rushed up to the hospital in Melacca.

We waited for approximately 2 to 3 hours outside and were told that she was going to be fine.

Then we decided who to stay at the hospital to keep grandma company, it was MOI.

lol.

I didn't mind cuz first, I was really worried for my grandma and I've got nothing to do at home, besides practising my piano for the enrollment to my current college, International College Of Music. That was then. I stayed  there for about 3 days and 2 nights. On the first night, I couldn't sleep. I don't know, could be the stress or the worry. I barely slept, only for 1 or 2 hours in total. There was this auntie beside my grandma's bed, she lent me some magazines to kill some time and also we chatted for a while. If it wasn't because of this post, I could have forgotten all those memories already. Oh, I still remember that she was from Tangkak, like an hour from Melacca. hahaa.. She was really funny and interesting person. Oh, a very talkative one too, which me likey~

So, on the 5th of February, I went back home with my grandma. She had to stay with us for two weeks until her next checkup. I remembered I had some quarrel with my mom, but I've forgotten what was it about. LOL. I vent all my pressure on my love, I cried.. blah blah blah.

And I went online after that, chatted with some friends and found the person that I liked confessed to me. Wokay, seriously I was really surprised cuz I never expected that, like, in my life. LOL. Of course, I did my thinking and accepted two days after. It was, hm... probably the best chinese new year i've ever had in my living 18 years. Because I went to many places to "bai nian", plus with all of my beloved friends. Honestly, I've really enjoyed my time during 2008's CNY. It was the best. 

Then I had my first Valentine's day out with my first. Oh well, it was all sweet and nice. Had a movie and dinner at Bevy's. You know how people can get very nervous for the first dates, that's what happened. hahaha..

And then I had my practices at the church, for the preparation for my college.

3 songs with different styles. WOW, I know. And I did my best.

MARCH+APRIL+MAY

I've submitted my songs on the 3rd of March, if I'm not mistaken. And had some adventure in KL, travelled here and there on my own, with absolutely no sense of direction. I didn't know I could be that silly though. Hahaaha...

Came up to KL around mid March to get used to the KL life, which .. was pretty interesting. Everything was really fresh. Literally. Went out to all the places that I've barely went with him, pretty fun and we liked all the places we've went. Uhm. Or maybe it's just my side. ahahaha.. I love being adventurous. Oh well, that's how we learn from our mistakes. "Next time don't use this route." hahahaha... And we learnt the way to go to where we want, although it's mostly shopping malls. 

My life during March, April and May was pretty much like in holidays, even when the course started. It was 2 days per week, 2 hours per day class, and it's Malaysian Studies, the english version of History that we have learnt in our high school. I enjoyed my college life cuz it was so relaxing and all, all right, I'm lazy. But it was really fun going to college, especially learning what I love. Of course, I've met a lot of friends there. My new friends : Grace, Shuqeera, Irma, Wai Leong, Poh Hock, Balqis, Parham, Soon Aun and Ui Li. Geez and when I start to realize, i've known them for 9 months plus already! WOW! Waiting for the 1st year Anniversary. Teehee. =)

On the last day of our short semester, 27th of May, we had our final test on Malaysian Studies. After that, we did what any students will do on the last day of schooling, a gathering! At the McDonald's, of course. It was 5 minutes or less walk from our college. LOL. We had an awesome gathering and the meal was fabulous. Why? Because Miss Zakiah gave us a treat. Ahahaha... And also a cake from Baskin Robbin's. Oh my, speaking of it, I'm so going to get ice cream from there today since it's 31st of the month. =) After the gathering, it was holiday for us, for A MONTH AND A HALF! It was like the year-end school holidays! And we get that semester break for twice a year! WOW! Wokay, for that semester break, we all had fun in our own ways. As for me, I can never forget the trip to Sunway Lagoon with my friends on the 30th, or maybe 29th of May. It was totally unforgettable. Hope to visit there with my friends again, and hopefully a different sensation. *smirks*

JUNE

It wasn't an eventful month for me cuz I spent most of my holidays in my hometown, chillin' around. Visited my friends here and there. Had numerous of high-tea session with my different circles of friends. Not forgetting my bestie since high school, Alison! =) I've met her at Times Square some time during June and we had fun. Also, I celebrated his birthday, twice. LOL. Once with his family and once in KL, when i got back to KL to celebrate with him. Did what a couple usually do, a movie, a dinner and some quality time together. And I still remember the movie that we've watched together that day, Made Of Honor. Man, I'm gonna get that DVD cuz it's such a great movie, two thumbs up from me. =D And, okay, i don't know. Old age's finally caught up with me, i'm losing memories. LOL! But I remembered this movie marathon that we've went for 3 or 4 days in a row. And we weren't tired of it. I guess we're both movie-people. Teehee. What, I love movies~

JULY

It was the month that I got back to college. A brand new semester for me. Compared to the previous one, there was a lot a lot a lot more pressure... studies, friends, this and that. Hmm. So, I remember before my college starts on the 14th of July, I went out with my friends at Mid valley on the 12th of July, which is a Saturday. It was really a rare chance to meet Joey, Emily and Fatin. Very rare and so ... we value every moment. Okay, except for me cuz I decided to be aloof due to personal reasons that I didn't really want anybody to interfere with for a few moments. Of course, that leaded to unpleasant issues but it was soon over. And then my college started with endless surprises. LOL. I've got to know a lot more of friends than I did in March. New friends : Joanna, Farouk, Omar, Hanz, Tiah, Aida, Khalis, Daniel, Din, Shan, Sham, Charisse, Carin, Laura, Shin Nee, Sook Yee and a whole lot more. Never worry of not getting to know a new friend everyday. =D It was a surprise when I met Shin Nee on the 5th floor. She was my primary schoolmate and we barely met except for one of our ex-classmate's birthday on the 18th of Dec, 2007. i would never have expected to meet anybody in my hometown to study in the same college but I did and I'm glad I did. Hahahaa.. We were the same batch but in different programmes. So that means we would have to part ways 2 years after. But it doesn't matter, as long as we all keep in touch. =D 

And I celebrated my 18th birthday. As what I've expected, i didn't really want to celebrate with somebody else except for him as he was important to me. I had some event at my college that day in the afternoon and as soon as it ended, I went to Pavilion straightaway, to meet him up. We watched a movie soon after we've met and we went to somewhere else to catch another movie. That was a spontaneous plan. =) But we didn't make it because all the tickets weren't available and it was late, we decided to go to my place and chill at the poolside. I remember before we got to the car, we were walking around the mall and .. I will never forget the carpark as there weren't many cars around and it looked eerie. LOL. Okie I was being very perasan *self-slap*.

AUGUST

This is the first month that I've started to feel all stressed up with studies because there was some assignments and in-class assessments aka exams. I became very aggressive and very extreme in a way that I abused my friendship from now and then, I got drowned in my self-make misery, countless emotional breakdown. And that leaded to the breakup. Ha. How ironic. But true, Stress is a smart killer, that kills your pleasure from everything. It keeps you reminded from all the stupid things. People who read my blog should know what I'm talking about. Teehee. And this was the month I got myself really involved into the Performance studies and piano lessons. Oh well, it doesn't mean that I spaced out throughout July but I've finally got the idea on how should I be doing for these classes only in this very month. And also my relationship between people got stronger from time to time. Friends... are really important. I have always keep that in my mind but somehow when it comes to the right time, it fled away. Ugh.

SEPTEMBER

My First Friday Performance!!! Weeee~~~~~~ It wasn't a blast but .. 

yeah. I enjoyed myself from doing it. Although I was really nervous. I even trembled for a while. Hmm. Oh well, I can do better next time. =) Be positive! Hyah~! =.="

And I stayed over Joanna's place. She was being such a doll for letting me to stay at her place for about two weeks because my family went on a Europe trip. *ARGH!* I couldn't go because my friday performance show was in between. So... I guess I'll have to go some other time, with my significant other. Mwahahahahahaa... *ehem*. I enjoyed myself really much staying at Joanna's place because it's Joanna, hello? XD Yup it was AWESOME and she's really being a very great host. Hmm. Yah. *blinks*

OCTOBER+NOVEMBER

Another two stressful months because of the in-class assessments, assignments and FINAL PROJECTS! It was *what-turf*(quote by cheese, i like it lar.. very cute!) stressing on me for almost every second that I'm breathing. Okay I admit, I cannot handle stress very well and hence my black face showed almost every time I see my friends. So kesian them. LOL! Plus that made me a  very very touchy person. Thank GOD for giving me such great friends, because I really love them a lot. They're really great that they understand my feelings, my mood swings and also gave me space whenever I need it and also advices. Gosh! They're like no other people could ever replace them. I love you MY FRIENDS!!! Although I'm sorry for being such an arse. Ahahahahahhaa.... Oh okay, I know i'm good. okay okay. *smirks*

DECEMBER

And here comes my favorite month of the year!! D-E-C-E-M-B-E-R!!!!

WOOOOHOOO~~~~~

Not to mention the merriest season, CHRISTMAS!

And also the gathering with my friends of different circles!

WOW!

Gosh I miss my friends.....

Wokay, I went back to my hometown around 7 of December, or.. something, i can't remember. ahahahha...

Yup I went back and met up with all my friends, did the task that my dad asked me to, relaxation, quality time with myself at the balcony, had delicious food that my mom cooked *smirks*,  hmm...... and also cleared out some clouds in my mind. WHOA~

So what-turf cool.

Played in the church during the christmas week's sunday. Teehee. It was all fine~

Hmm. What else.

OH! After that, I came up to KL and joined my friends' KL trip. It's an annual trip that we would normally organize for gatherings since we're all so far apart from each other, Aaaaaaand it's been two years, in KL. Hopefully another place next year. *winks!*

The trip lasted 4 days and 3 nights, from 23rd of Dec to 26 of Dec, for some of us. We all had fun and we went almost everywhere except for the PJ area, which is my personal favorite. Ahh.. I guess next time. =D Emily, I'm sure you can wait. Hehehee.. good things are worth waiting. =D

And throughout this trip, we all gained a lot of memories, regardless of good or bad ones, but we've all shared the precious moments together. I will post loads of photos about the KL trip on the coming post. Uhm. but that will take a long long time. Ahahaha.. Since I'm lazy to blog nowadays. *deep breathe*

Right after the KL trip, I went to Ipoh with my college friends! The purpose was to visit Joanna of course. OH gosh. We all had a lot a lot a lot a lot of fun. Really. A picture's worth a thousand words, so go check the pictures out. I love Ipoh's food. Really. Cheap and tasty. REALLY TASTY. The place was awesome, except for the rain. Maybe becuz we've got the wrong timing, rainy season. So what-turf bored. Hmmph. But it was all good. I miss the food at the Barbeque party. I miss the Turkey. I miss the Bacon. I miss the salad although i haven't really tasted it. I miss the macaroni. I miss the Satay. I miss this. I miss that. Yup. There'll certainly be another time me going to to Ipoh. I must. I want the food. *drools...*

I just got back from Ipoh yesterday and I'm missing it already. I actually didn't want to come back to KL. LOL! Okay, I know. Enjoyed myself too much. Hmm... Hope to visit Ipoh again any time soon!

And for now, today's the last day of 2008, I've decided to become a better person. That is a promise that I make every year and I know that I evolve in certain ways from time to time.

I want to break free in every way. I don't know why but I've always felt that I've reached my peak. Even though, I still want to discover every other peak. Because I believe this is not the highest that I can reach, just yet. =)

I believe that GOD have plans for me and I always believe in GOD because I know HE knows what's right for me, at the moment. I have always appreciate what GOD has planned for me. In a sense that, my safety, my life, my health, my family and my friends that GOD has given me, made me felt really joyful of living my life till now. Ahh, it's deep. I know. I'll explain some other time later.

 But for now, I'd like to say thanks to

GOD for giving me life every single day, giving me safety every moment, giving me what I need and what i've hoped for.

JESUS for being there for me everytime I need you, whenever I'm happy or sad. And also giving me faith in life.

MY FAMILY for giving me all the best in my life, giving me support for the things I do, giving me advices when I need them, for being there for me always.

MY FRIENDS especially those I've really known for some time, thank you for being my friends. I'm sorry for being not a good friend to some of you, but thanks for being so understanding. You guys really rock my life. =D

etc. etc.

I can never finish saying thank you even it's for the strangers that I've never met or have met once or twice. I'm really grateful that I'm living in this world despite all the distressing issues.

I'm glad.

That's all for this final post of the year of 2008.

*APPLAUSE!!!*

Je t'aime mes amis

I have never felt this vulnerable before.

Honestly.

I cried as if my heart was torn apart,

but not exactly.

Only my friends know that

I'm crying

only because I miss them

and

I really missed them.

I went for the KL trip

with the friends from my hometown.

I was really thrilled that I could joined

this trip because

I could meet up with my besties.

They know who they are.

=)

Really, they do.

I've spent 4 days and 3 nights with them

and

I wished the time will stop

or

at least slow down.

I really had a great time with them

especially for the christmas eve.

It was certainly a blast.

=)

Time is unforgiving

and never enough

for us

because we just simply enjoy

every moment that we have ever shared,

even though some of them were unpleasant.

I'm sorry for not enjoying myself

to the fullest.

My friends,

you do know why.

My mind isn't that difficult to be interpreted.

But I'm really really glad that

I've spent the time with you guys,

especially for my favorite holiday of the year,

Christmas.

I guess I would've really lost you guys

if I ever let this chance slipped through my fingers.

If, and only if,

I could pause the time.

Even if it's just for a day.

Our time's too precious to be treasured.

Hence we always have let the time

defeated us,

because we didn't know the way

to use our time wisely.

Some people might be spoiling the

motive for this trip,

but still we had fun,

in our very own ways.

=)

For now,

I feel that

the loneliness

has fully conquered my mind and soul.

It's warned me that I'm going to face this

for just anytime.

I've never thought that I couldn't

handle this feeling

until I have parted with my friends.

Undeniably,

friends are always one of the essence of life.

This caused the urge of crying,

as in,

crying out loud.

But I'm always using something to cover

so that nobody could ever know

if I did.

I needed to cry,

just to let out my deep buried feelings.

I guess I've been too enigmatic

for too long

and therefore

I've lost count the times I've cried for this year.

I know that being happy is definitely

an alternative way of releasing my feelings,

but it is never the same.

My heart will never stop aching

unless I cried.

There's one thing for sure,

at least for now,

I'm doing my best to make myself happy.

=)

Because I know

life isn't just about being sad,

live life with all the color of happiness.

It's a lil corny I know.

=)

But do shut up.

=D

"Everything is beautiful

Even when the tears are falling

I don't need a miracle to believe

Even in the crashing down

I can hear redemption calling

And everything is beautiful to me." 

--- "Everything is beautiful" by Starfield

Thanks for being such dolls,

JABE,

=)

for most of the moments of this trip.

=)

For time is not stopping,

I'm looking forward

for the next time we meet.

=)

YKWYA.

JABE.

I made this acronym

just to make it sounds nice.

=D

I love you GOD

I love you JESUS

I love you MY FAMILY

I love you MY FRIENDS

I love you CHOCOLATE

I love you Robpattz

I love you TAKESHI KANESHIRO

I love you Robpattz

=)

p/s: there will be loads of photos

next post.

I promise there'll be captions,

for most of them.

ahahaha...

=P

TAGGED! =)

1. Name the people you tagged. (10)

- @Ting, Balqiz, Jackson, Tayyz, Nana, Joanna, kiki, 幸福王子, Fatin

and whoever wanna take this tag.

XD

2. Describe yourself in one word.

- unique

3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?

- the one I love

4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?

-teehee. yes.

5. How if people reject your confess face to face?

- Hope we still can be friends

6. God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?

- live your life with happiness

7. What will u say to a person who doesn’t want to believe u?

- Time will tell the truth.

8. Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?

- hmm... yarh...

9. Do you have something special with you all the time?

- my imaginations =D

10. Long distance love ?

- not for now. too young for it.

hmm.

11. Best place to cry.

- in my pillows.

12. Who do you love the most?

- I love everyone equally.

13. Tell us of your dream last night?

- I can't remember, honest!

XD

14. Ever hated someone so bad?

- DURH. even now and then. hmmph.

15. The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?

- i don't know....

16. The last person you had a beer with?

- errhh..... i've forgotten...

17. The last person you went to the movies with?

- Myself, watched "IGOR".

18. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?

- grandma. LOL.

19. The last person you hugged?

- Honestly, i've lost some of my memories jor.

so.. no idea.

=D

20. The last person you yelled at?

- pass.

21. In the last week have you kissed someone?

- I kissed Kemi's face. does that even count??

22. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?

- she was a pain in the neck from time to time.

but... ugh. nvm.

23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

-I wish all the people in the world get brainwashed with good intentions

and everybody share their wealth in terms of health and possessions. XD

what a wish.

24. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?

- First : Australia, Austria, Prague, Munich, Berlin, Paris, Barcelona, Rome,

Tunisia, Cappadocia, Pamukkale, Ephesus, New York, Honolulu, Los Angeles, Hollywood,

Miami, Shanghai, Hokkaido, Beijing, Seoul, New Zealand.... too many to mention.

25. What you hate the most?

- self-absorbed, self-centered, arrogant, stupid, idiot, backstabber,

liar..... too many to mention as well. hahaha..

26. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?

- the only interest and freedom.

27. Five facts About Me:

- half-moron, music-fanatic, free-spirited, food lover, adorable. XD

28. Five things that scare me:

- being left behind all alone(but i'll get used to it in time),

- human minds

- loveless life

- hopeless and without motivations

- minor stuffs like total darkness, insects, thunder and clowns.

29. Two Songs Playing in My Head Lately:

- Oh! Gravity by Switchfoot

- On the side of me by Corrinne May

30. Five Things I treasure in my life:

- time, freedom, love(s), food and life.

ENJOY~!

Mon arbre de Noël

As I promised from some previous post,

Here are some photos of my

KWIZMERZ TWEE!!

Oh YAY!

Yarh i know, it looks suck.

Fine, whatever.

bah!

XD

This is how it looks with the lights on.

*twinkle twinkle*

How could you resist a

kwizmerz twee

with a romantic ambience?

=)

Okay la... the angle problem.

But don't you think the blurry edges are nice???

I love it and it's like my signature already.

XD

Whoever' not blind could see

I'm in it.

Such an addict of taking pix.

XD

*toot* romantic...

I suddenly fell in love

with 

the door curtains.

LOL.

They contributed a lot for the

romantic ambience whey...

And this is how it looks like

WITHOUT lights.

very peaceful.

=D

La Fin

pictures! at my hometown =)

Oh well, I went back to my hometown

approximately two weeks ago.

've been busy with random stuffs *total-lazy*

and....

until today, I've found yet another beautiful

sunset in my life.

Uhm.. not really that beautiful-beautiful,

but in my mind, it's another kind of nature art

that I have always appreciated.

=)

It was still early evening. So, the sky looked much brighter

than the normal evenings.

The rambutan tree's leaves. 

Very beautiful sight.

It was supposed to be more clearer,

but I just love the blurry edges!

XD

I like this one.

My pet, Kemi,

looking up cuz I've caught her attention

while I was singing while taking pictures.

Teehee.

We can see a few rambutan fruits up there.

I don't know but it does looks lovely.

XD

Okay lar..

I was acting cute.

But it turned out nice right???

Look at the rambutan fruits behind me!!

XD

*Shhh.....* It's a secret I'll never tell.

=D

*LAME!!*

Very "artistic" I know.

Thank you thank you~

X)

See the bird up there??

It was so cute..

XD

Oh well, I guess it was waiting for another bird.

LOL.

Don't you think that leaves look nice

especially when the sky was painted with that color...

Typical evening that I love.

Obviously,

it was photoshop-ed.

teehee.

Yarh a bit.

But it looks nice.

XD

*Pout!*

For the last two pix!!

The picture that says....

La Fin

Yipee~~

Life isn't that bad

after all.

=)

I've found two shirts of mine

in my home.

I was just randomly walked by the living room upstairs,

(apparently it isn't)

LOL

Yarh

and I saw something on the chair,

and you know what happened

whenever i find something

interesting, exciting, surprising

or whatever,

I SCREAMED.

mwahahahaha.

I've found them!!!

After all these whiles,

they were there!!!!

I thought I've lost them!!

Oh my GAWD!!!

Anyways,

yarh.

I've found them

and I've got

two more shirts.

Yipee~~

Okay FINE!

They were craps.

=D

I love you GOD

I love you JESUS

I love you MY FAMILY

I love you MY FRIENDS

I love you CHOCOLATE

I love you Robpattz

I love you TAKESHI KANESHIRO

i love you Robpattz

=)

enigmatic me

I can't refrain myself

from keeping so many secrets.

Most of them are mine.

I can't let myself to be totally

exposed.

That's my only thing that I have

for myself,

except for my talent.

Is it so wrong

to be mystery to all of the people?

Is it too suffocating

just because nobody could get through my mind?

Is it that hard to

not know all of my secrets?

Well,

I just went to

another blog of mine,

which is supposedly to be viewed

by me only.

I have never dropped by since the last post

about two or three weeks ago.

There I found those feelings

that I have kept deep in my heart.

Then those deeply buried memories

actually "resurrected"

and overwhelmed

most part of my mind,

my narrow mind.

Even in my dreams.

*pfft..*

Soon they'll be taken over,

soon something else will conquer my mind.

Soon I'll go bonkers.

It's all about letting go,

isn't it?

GOD BLESS ME.

=)

I love you GOD

I love you JESUS

I love you MY FAMILY

I love you MY FRIENDS

I love you Chocolate

I love you Robpattz

I love you TAKESHI KANESHIRO

I love you Robpattz

=)

无题

不知道为什么

身体累累的，

双脚没什么力，

跟别人说话也没什么力气。。

本来还以为太饿了，

就早点吃晚餐。

吃的时候，

又不觉得很饿了。

好。

谁知道，

要回家的时候，

走路的时候就觉得

脚还是软软的。。。。。。

整个好像要晕了。

好久没这样了说。

后来回到家，

就躺在沙发上，

闭上眼睛，

哇。。

整个人就觉得好舒服。。

结果还是太累了吗？

还是贫血的关系？

还是心情不好的关系。。

烦死了。。

就当你的生活有了一点起色的时候，

就。。。

不想说了。

呵呵呵。。

完毕！

I love you GOD

I love you JESUS

I love you MY FAMILY

I love you MY FRIENDS

I love you Chocolate

I love you Robpattz

 I love you TAKESHI KANESHIRO

I love you Robpattz

=)

"On the Side of Me" by Corrinne May

"On the side of me"

by

Corrinne May

I'm not the easiest person to love

I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

Yet you choose to be on the side of me

On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things

I've done in my life

The skeletons in my closet

Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

Blessed Charity

You're on the side of me 

On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold

When it's cold outside

And there's no place to go

Everyone needs a friend to hold

All alone I cried

There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared

But you

I'm not the easiest person to love

But you,

you've opened your heart to show me

what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be 

On the side of me

On the side of me

What a mystery

You're on the side of me

On the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold

When it's cold outside

And there's no place to go

Everyone needs a friend to hold

All alone I cried

There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared

Nobody cared

But you...

Yeah you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

It's your way of thinking

of this song

whether

what kind of meaning that it brings.

I choose to look into this song

in two ways.

=)

By the way,

I wonder if anyone have noticed

I always post up the song lyrics

that actually represents

what I'm feeling at the moment.

=)

等待

有些事情

或许你之前已经安排好

或是你认为会照着你所期望的进行

偏偏

事与愿违。

这种事常发生我们当中。

很多时候，

我们都选择，

“算了吧”

来给这个遗憾一个结束。

为什么？

有时侯

当你发现一样事情

你也为此开心

而且迫不及待告诉大家

你所想的好消息。

但是

当你真的告诉了大家的时候，

偏偏事情不会像你之前所预期的。

也许对你来说

会变成一件不愉快的事情。

后来，这种事情发生了太多次，

你学乖了。

你犹豫着该不该

告诉大家，

还是

应该等待事情有肯定的结果出来之后，

再说。

后者，

往往都是怕被伤害，

怕事与愿违，

怕现实，

怕。。。。

但是，

后者难道不会带来遗憾吗？

遗憾，

也只是时间上的洗礼

的其中一个步骤。

无法逃避。。

但是

我会选择不说。

我情愿什么都不说。

别人或许会猜测我

的心

到底在想什么。

可是我不管。

因为这是我的privilege。

同样的，

我也学会了

等待。

等待，

对我来说，

有许多不同的意义。

但是，

只要我知道我

正在等待的

是什么，

那就够了。

I love you GOD

I love you JESUS

I love you MY FAMILY

I love you MY FRIENDS

I love you Chocolate

I love you Robpattz

I love you TAKESHI KANESHIRO

I love you Robpattz

=)